Thursday, May 19, 2011

To Thine Own Self Be True

And I haven't been.  Last year I was approached by a big publishing house to write a book about natural dyeing.  They laid out what they wanted and as much as I try I just cannot produce a book for their formula. 

Don't get me wrong their formula is most excellent, it's just not me and when it comes to dyeing fabric, fibers, and yarns I put a ton of me into the work.  I guess that's the epiphany when writing a book about dyeing with natural dyes I'm writing about me and if you were to ask me what IS wrong with my first three books is they exclude me! 

The end result was I quit producing, I floundered, I quit producing cloth, finished works, and I quite writing about what I was doing.  Why I felt shame and guilt about this is beyond me, it was after all their formula and they didn't want to know about me they wanted me to fit into their forumla.

So with that in mind the books, the DVD's, etc. will soon change and you will be seeing less mind numbing instruction and a whole lot more of "me".  It's the effort of shutting out the other voices that tell you who you are and what you should be, that is the hard part.  I've come to the conclusion that those who insist, no demand, on telling you who you are and what you should be really don't care two whits about who/what you are or will be.

Coming soon, "the real me", get ready world because here I come!

5 comments:

wildprairie said...

Kim, blessings on your adjusted journey. I have followed your work for a long time and enjoy the learning your share with others. It is hard to please other people but sometimes it is hard to please ourselves. I wish you the energy to accomplish what your spirit wants you to do.

cedar said...

I'm ready for the "real you" although I thought the "unreal" you was pretty wonderful...you are incredibly accomplished and now you are going to be even more out there...good luck and when is the new book coming out...lol

k baxter packwood said...

Cedar... think nutty professor and on steroids. I've been curbing that part of my personality for quite some time now and the end result is a lot of people tell me I'm coming across as "stiff".

Martine said...

i'm looking forward...........
XXXm

cedar said...

No matter who you are if you are brave enough to put your hand out in thepublic arena, you have to be willing to have half the people love you and have criticize you, you are courageous to just be out there, in my humble opinion. People think I;m too loose...so who knows...lol